confused....

So this is me left here...so confused...I have no idea if i have to laugh or cry or just sit down thinkin bout it...so badly hurt....aw.....i am so much better and strong in makin ppl strong...god...why the hell did you make me so weak when things come to me like this...you gave me the power to face bigger problems when my friend was hurt...why not the same when it comes to me....and you are really sick dude.....think of it,,,you made me up like...i hate askin frnds for help...and you stop me from askin too....what in the world are you thinkin....gimme the solution for this mess.....or just leave me alone.....just dont ditch me again like this...im losin my earning...i have to earn if i have to get to my dream place..i don want dad or mom to pay for it.....c'mon..be a man...play fair.....or atleast allow me to and don just interfere......yours.......angrily....Siva....